As I sit here trying to continue learning how to navigate this blog and the “blogosphere” itself, I keep thinking to myself – just write. That is ultimately what I’m here for. The photos linked to the site, the hashtags and followers will come with time and more experience. When I first decided to blog, I thought I would just do it weekly…I can do a summary once a week as to how it is all going. Then I realized that sometimes I will just want to say something that doesn’t need to, or shouldn’t wait.
So. How was the weekend, you’re wondering?
You guys! I am still sober. And I am still happy. This past weekend I was around alcohol many times, but it didn’t bother me.
It’s funny. Because this has been such a long time coming, it really doesn’t seem to be all that drastic of a lifestyle change in my mind. However, to several of the people I told over the weekend – I think it seems like “whhhhat?” to them. But I wouldn’t know it. Everyone was so on board. I didn’t get push-back from the ones who were unaware of my trials and tribulations with drinking..they were like “cool”, or “kudos”. It was awesome. Then there are the people who have known about Carol and the bitches many catastrophes. They were like “cool, or “kudos”.
See what I’m saying? Everyone was supportive. I know that it was only a handful of acquaintances, family, and friends so far…but it meant so much to me. I would have to say, explaining the issue as a whole and then my decision to stop drinking to the lets say – “unaware”, was almost easier. Their reaction was important to me, but it wasn’t like they ever had to deal with Carol. When I told my friends and family who have encountered her – their response made it the most amazing, autonomous decision. They didn’t shout “HALLELUJAH”, or “FINALLY- she’s gone!”. They were like: “I like that Carol’s retiring” and “that’s good”.
My heart. People are so good. My people are just so wonderful. I am very lucky to have a life here that is my own and a life where I can also rely on many to get me to the places I know I belong. I know the road to staying free from drinking alcohol, or as I read on hip-sobriety’s blog -“teetotal-ling”, is not going to be free from issue or temptation. I know this, and am ready for the journey. This empowering feeling of control I have right now is overwhelming in a good way. I look forward to being my best self.
I also look forward to sharing many stories with you all throughout my time blogging as to what has gotten me here. That is one of the many reasons I am blogging in the first place. I want to be sure that when the next person my age comes along looking for another person out there who has struggled and decides to reign it in and needs support – this will be here for them. I want to be able to relate, and meet others in the same shoes. They are worn shoes, with many miles of stories and ideas. So they should continue moving…we will continue moving together.